Day 31

Well guys I did well today. I made sure I had enough calories to have a little slice of cake. It was good and its definitely the flavor I want for my cake. The marshmallow fondant was such a nice touch and a sweet little surprise! It is definitely a keeper! No exciting news today other than the fact that I did some house cleaning and had the house open to air it out. It was kind of nice actually. If I wasn't so pooped I would write my diary for you but you will just know I ate cake..lol

Exercise - walking (fast pace)  35 minutes - 245

Before - 1563 / 1500
After - 1318 / 1500

Day 30

30 days....30 flippin days people! Well I have done well and I had my first real trial today. Jeffrey made my trial birthday cake yesterday. We let it set up over night in the fridge. Well I didn't have enough calories left today to have a slice. So I served him a piece and didn't have any. Thats right...no cake. It really sucks but if I just say "Oh It's ok I'll go over this one day". Well then one day turns into more than that. My dad would tell me to quit being a cry-baby-bed-wetter and not to cheat. So I'm not cheating...I'm being good and maybe tomorrow I will have more calories available for a small slice of what will be my birthday cake. Jeffrey said it tasted good and like a bakery cake. So I will just have to trust him on that one.

Breakfast
Banana

Lunch
Chili
mac and cheese
dew

Dinner
NY Strip Streak (8oz.)
1/2 cup potatoes
1 cup of broccoli

Snack
1 whole pickle

Exercise - Walking very brisk pace - 20 min - 140 calories

before - 1508 /1500
after - 1368 / 1500

Day 29....WEIGH IN!!!!

Well y'all...Almost 30 days into my diet. I did weigh in today....now I won't lie...December 30th I weighed in at 192 (eeek I know) today I weighed in at......dun dun dun...185.6!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DOWN 6.4!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!


Oh yes people...we are still losing!!!! I'm so excited!! I actually screamed a little when I saw the number. I am almost back to the weight I was this summer. And it took me 3 months to lose 10 pounds like time I did this. Well clearly I wasn't on the right diet. Low Carb is working for me. I'm happy!! I do miss my carbs sometimes but once and a while isn't bad. Today I got my pizza fix...homemade! I know what was in that crust I know what I put on top of my pizza. There is something about making something yourself. More pride. It was great!

It was my lunch and supper. It wasn't on my diet today I didn't count calories. Although I didn't over do it! I have drank SO MUCH WATER today it is redic. I will be back to my workouts tomorrow. I still feel all head cold like. I'm having coughing fits so I'm trying not to do to much in the working out area because its hard to stop the coughing. I may just do abs tomorrow because it isn't cardio-ish. Well I hope you all had a great weekend. I know I did!!!

Day 27

Well today I had my first true craving for something that I haven't had in a while. PIZZA!! I know...there was a frozen one in the freezer and they have really good pizza form the gas station across the street. But I resisted...so to cure the sweet taste I was wanting I had a egg salad sandwich (made with Miracle Whip) and some Chili. So after that I felt a tad better. I guess it was a weird combo to eat together but not as weird as you southerns have a peanut butter sandwich with your chili. (Weirdos!!!) So I hope I made a better choice than giving in and making a pizza.

After 3 weeks in being "back to school" I have averaged 3 days a week subbing. I filled up my car on January 15th...I still have a half a tank!!! I went from filling up twice a week to once or twice a month. Talk about a HUGE difference. I really miss my Charleston School friends but this is SUCH a better choice for me. I'm getting to know the teachers and the principals. The vice principal came up to me today and said, "We are keeping you busy aren't we!" It is nice that they notice.  I'm not as stressed and feeling like I'm finding my place down here. I have more time for me and things are falling into place I feel. I kind of like this feeling actually.

Breakfast
Banana

Lunch
Chili
mac n cheese (little bit)
cheese
dew

Dinner
egg salad sandwich (miracle whip)
chili
mac n cheese (little bit)
cheese
5 crackers

Snacks
Pickle

Exercise - 30 minutes Cardio (Turbo Jam - Cardio Jam) - 296

Before = 1477/1500
After = 1181 / 1500

Day 26

Well I'm still nursing this stupid head cold. Walking is totally out of the question since its raining. This is my second night alone and I think I have done pretty well. I'm under 1200 calories again. My Fitness Pal app is telling me to eat over 1200 or my body will go into starvation mode. I'm just not hungry...so I don't know what to do. Do I force myself to eat so I stay above 1200 or just not worry about it?!?!? I don't know...Any help y'all?? Never thought this would be an issue with me...Honestly...

Breakfast
banana

Lunch
chili
shredded cheese
mac n cheese
Dew

Dinner
Mini Chef Salad
Cream of chicken soup
10 saltines

Snack
Pickle

Walking around school about 30 minutes total - 127

Before walking - 1144/1500
After walking - 1017/1500

Day 25

Woot!! Hey y'all!!! Well i'm sorry for sucking yesterday and not posting. I know that you all missed me. Don't lie to yourself...

Well here is my PCOS rant for this week...the stupid hair growth! I think that is the most visual and most annoying. Since women with PCOS produce more testosterone than a normal woman (yes women you do produce some of that male hormone) we grow hair in places that men grow hair. So belly, arms, and on your face. Now you may not think of this as a big deal, but it is just as coarse as a mans and its BLACK. I didn't think it was a big deal at first and I'm part italian so I just thought it was normal. It is stick straight and yeah. It is something that we don't like to talk about. It also embarrassed me! I mean who wouldn't be?? Until I saw a Dr. Oz type show about PCOS. A woman asked about what she could do about her hair growth on her face and arms (since it was the most noticeable). He said those two words... "Shave it". I mean really why the heck not? What is worse? So I did...is it degrading? I think so but I don't want people staring at my face with black hair coming out of my chin...no! My arm hair is a different story I dont shave it. I can't bring myself to do it. I trim it...I have to. It is super embarrassing...to have to explain to people why I do it. But such is life! I hope that you enjoyed my colorful insight... :)

Breakfast
Banana

Lunch
Kristie's Chef Salad
1/2 Pickle

Dinner
Chili made with extra lean beef
8 Saltines
1tbs cheese
1/4 cup mac and cheese

Calories before cleaning 1103/1500
Calories after cleaning 998/1500

Day 23

Well today is Monday...BLAH!!! Well I did weigh in today...down another pound!! 5 total in 3 weeks!!! GO ME!!! I also subbed today so I thought it was fun...I was a one on one aid.

Breakfast
Banana

Lunch
2 small chicken breasts
cup of broccoli

Dinner
10 oz Top Sirloin Steak
cup of broccoli
dollop of potatoes

Walking around school 30 - 127 calories

Calories 1170 / 1500 - before
             1043 / 1500 - after

Day 22 - Sunday Funday!

Here we are day 22 and still ticking. Today I did weigh in and no change. BOOOOO! UGH!!! So frustrating....The only update that I could think of is that my clothes are fitting differently. My jeans are the most noticeable for me. Also when I look in the mirror I can see a shape finally...I know i'm curvy...but more definition if that makes more sense. I'm doing a little bit of P90X since the weather hasn't been really crappy and all menstral! So I'm trying to be better by if I can't walk or something to do that. At least I'm trying to do something everyday during the week and take the weekends off.

As lazy as I am....I'm not posting food Ill post my calories for ya...

1145/1500 - WOOO

Day 19

Not a very exciting day today! I subbed at Ste. Marie today. Pretty sweet having a minute drive to work! It was a whole different breed working with Kindergartners!

Well I'm glad that I have been under calories pretty much this whole time. Well I'm only down 4 pounds...while others are dropping weight. Thats what is a pain in the @$$ about PCOS. It is so easy to gain the weight, but losing it is a whole different story. It is almost twice as hard. My clothes are fitting better which I did notice. My issue I think is that I'm not a dainty girl. I have muscle...especially in my legs and my butt-O-steel. I never really considered myself big or too overweight but what I am is preventing me from getting pregnant. Which in my opinion is LAME! Just saying... My mini goal is to lose 15....then another 10 after that. So total 25 (I'm sure you did the math).  We will see...I have the issue of getting tired of not seeing results and I let go of what I'm doing. I can feel a difference...but seeing it is a whole different story. All I see is my belly, boobs (like you could miss those stupid things), and gobbler (as Jeffrey calls it). Sorry this is one of those days where I feel weird and sort of down. It happens I have my days just like everyone else.

Also I haven't really been feeling all that great so my food choices haven't been all Atkins approved...

Breakfast
None

Lunch
Chili (97% fat free beef)
shredded cheese
dew
potato chips

Snack
Doritos (Ranch)

Dinner
bacon
cream of chicken soup
crackers

Exercise - Total walking throughout the day (about an hour) 255
low impact aerobics (ab workout p90x) - 106

Before exercise - 1368/1500
After exercise - 1007 / 1500

Day 18

Well today I didn't sub. Boring...I laid around all morning...literally. Then I had to get up and do something. It was cold so I avoided the outside today. So I vacuumed the house and did 3 loads of laundry. Oh yes...folded and put away...did the dishes and put those away too! Then I figured I should shower and about that time Jeffrey got home so I made dinner. Then he had youth choir at church and I thought I would do some Plyo in the P90X. GOOD GOD!!! I will feel that tomorrow...

Thats about it...sorry!

Breakfast
Fried Frankfurters

Lunch
Homemade Chili (97% percent fat free beef)
Shredded Cheese
Doritos (150 calories worth)
dew

Dinner
8 oz. Flat Steak
1 1/2 cup of Broccoli

Dessert
Homemade Banana Ice Cream

Exercise - Cleaning for an hour 213
Aerobics for 30 minutes - 298

Calories - 1540 / 1500
After exercise - 1029 / 1500

Day 17

Hello to my faithful followers! I hope your Tuesday went well. Mine was pretty ok. Minus our FREAK thunderstorm that woke me up this morning. I was so mad! UGH anyway...Well I subbed again today that would be 4 days in a row! GO ME! I'm enjoying getting up later and not leaving my house until like 7:40am. It beats leaving at 6:30 and driving an hour!!!!

Well I think I did ok today. I do need to find a better breakfast option on days that I sub. Its hard sometimes especially when everything I usually eat need to be cooked. If I wasn't so lazy at the end of the day I guess I could pre make something. I don't know...No true PCOS updates for me. I go back in March to get labs done and an ultra sound of the ovaries. I also told my doc about the no insurance thing since I quit my job. He is so awesome he not only gave me three months of free samples he also gave me $10 off coupons for the per-scribed stuff. I'm so happy! Although those labs are going to cost me an arm and a leg!! I hope they tell me that my insulin is lower. If not someone is going to get hurt...or I'll just be pissed. One of the two...

I know the cookies were not good choices today....

Breakfast
2 Chocolate Chocolate Peanut butter chip cookies

Lunch
Cup of chili
dew
2 Chocolate Chocolate Peanut butter chip cookies

Dinner
2 burgers
2 pieces of low carb bread
1 cup of broccoli

Dessert
1/2 cup Homemade Banana ice cream

Walking around at school all day (total est. 1 hour) - 255

Calorie Count
Before walking - 1645 / 1500
After - 1390 / 1500

Day 16

So I have been MIA a few days....deal with it! :) I know you have missed my random ramblings and all. Well ANYWAY here we are 2 weeks in and I'm down one more pound. SO a total of 4 pounds! Should it becoming off faster? I dont know...maybe. Well again thanks to PCOS weight doesn't come off as easy as it would with a normal healthy person. Although gaining weight is easy!

...Stupid PCOS...make me so mad sometimes. Sometimes I wonder why me? What did I do wrong? I did things right...I waited until my wedding night. I look to God and ask why. Where are the answers? Sometimes I don't understand why things happen. I think God has a sick sense of humor..lol! Jeffrey was saying watch you quit your job....lost your insurance...and you will lose this weight and BAM you will get knocked up. One would like to think that would be my queer twist of fate.

A lot of things happened in my life and I never understood why. Then looking back I can see why. They changed my path and shaped me to who I am. This pregnancy struggle has probably been my hardest I have ever had. But I'm still here...I'm still pulling through...I still wake up every morning. I enjoy my time with Jeffrey and my puppies. I enjoy my summer camps and my autumns been completely filled with marching band and guard. My time will come...I just have to wait and be patient...right?

So I made my own homemade ice cream tonight thanks to Pinterest!

Cut 4 bananas into slices and freeze them for an hour or so...

Then after you freeze them put them in a food processor until they look gritty...add a dollop of peanut butter or powdered cocoa if you like...i didn't

Then keep on going until it smooths out...and refeeze!

Breakfast
2 eggs with ham
4 slices of bacon

Lunch
1 cup of Chili
shredded cheese
8 crackers

Dinner
NY Strip Steak 8oz.
1 cup of Cauliflower

Dessert
Banana Ice Cream

Exercise - Walking 30 minutes and a very brisk pace - 213

Calorie Count - Before 1482/1500
AFTER - 1269/1500
231 left

Day 12

Here we are....almost two weeks into the diet. Well I'm finding..at least the past couple days I'm not eating enough calories. To where the program i'm using is telling me to eat more. Ugh...I know I'm just not finding things I want to eat so by default I make a salad. So tonight after I put in all my my food I only ate 880 calories today. Which apparently is not good or my body will go into starvation mode or something. So whatever....so I had two pieces of pizza to bring up my calorie count. How lame is that? Well here is my diary. Sorry I feel like a Debbie Downer today...

Breakfast
Banana

Lunch
Dew
Kristie's Chef Salad
Doritios (150 calories)
4oz Hamburger (97% Lean meat)\

Dinner
2 eggs
onion, green pepper, ham
4 pieces of bacon

This is the point where I only have eaten 880...

Snack
2 slices of pepperoni pizza

Calories
1356/1500

Day 11

Today was my first day of subbing was today. I loved it!!! I missed it...I forgot what that felt like to be in the front of the room. It was nice!

Well I wasn't feeling it today. I was off my schedule because of subbing and well just didn't feel like eating. I did anyway...no dessert tonight though. I'm kind of excited about the snow we are FINALLY GETTING although it has pretty crappy timing...I was supposed to go home this weekend. With them getting more snow than up and the 30mph wind gusts and country roads don't always mix. Jeffrey is also worried about me driving...AWE!

Breakfast
Banana
3 pieces of bacon

Lunch
Banana
Dew

Lin-ner
2 eggs with onion, green, and red pepper
4 Sausage links

Dinner
1 1/2 cups salad
onion, green and red pepper
2 tbs bacon bits
italian dressing
shredded cheese

No exercise today other than walking in the school...

Calories
1072/1500

Day 10

Ok here we go day 10. I tried to be good today...it was one of those days where I just couldn't satisfy a certain taste. I couldn't figure out what I wanted either. I think that was the most frustrating part!! UGH!!! So I tried to find what that taste was. I wasn't all that successful...so yeah...

I'm so more tired than usual. I think the lack of carbs is getting to me. I hade to make a deal with myself to get out and walk! I just really need to suck it up and man up and just deal.

So in 144 days I will be walking in the Avon Walk for Breast Cancer. I have done it before so I know what to expect. I am so excited to be back in it. The past few years I haven't been able to go and I was heart broken. This year I'm back and pumped!!! Hopefully this weigh loss will help me walk that 39.9 miles...I don't care soreness and blisters aren't half as bad as what cancer patients have to go through...

Breakfast
4 slices of Bacon
2 eggs
onion, green and red pepper
ham
2 sausage links

Lunch
dew
1 banana
1/2 pickle
Kristie's Chef Salad

Dinner
1 Brat
7 Lil smokies

Dessert
1 piece of Cinnamon Crumb Cake ( i know...i know...)

Exercise
Walking with Dogs for 30 minutes at a brisk pace = 141

Calories
Before exercise - 1635/1500
After exercise - 1494/1500 (6 calories to spare) UGH

Day 9

I thought that I would show you guys what some of my meals look like. I also decided to try low carb bread. It wasn't awful...it wasn't great. I just need another texture element. I also don't plan on eating it everyday. Here is what my 400 calorie breakfast looks like. It is also really filling!!

Breakfast - 406

Low Carb Bread
2 Sausage Links
2 eggs with onion, ham, green & red pepper

Lunch - 433

Dew
1/2 pickle
2 meatloaf minis
1 banana

Dinner - 359

Taco Beef (97% Lean)
Lettuce
Shredded Cheddar and Mozzarella
Onion
Green and Red Peppers

Dessert

1 banana
1/2 pickle
2 tangelos

Exercise


Light/Moderate Cleaning - 214

Calorie Count


Before exercise - 1458/1500
After exercise - 1244/1500

Day 8 - Sunday...weigh in day...

Yes today was weigh in day. Awesome. I need to try and make a habit out of doing this weekly so that I can know where i'm going progress wise. Well I know that to get my most accurate weight it needs to be in the morning...before eating, after "Number 2", and after showering with no clothes. So as this week has gone on with the different eating trend and walking I haven't felt any different...more tired really. So I wasn't expecting much. I mean I was weighed at the doctors office on December 30th and that was the number I was going to start with. Seems like a good starting point really. Well I got out of the shower and got on that scale....and I lost....

3 POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HECK YA !!!!!!!!!!!!! I am pumped!

Food Diary


Breakfast
None


Lunch
2 breaded Chicken Breasts
1 tablespoon of mashed potatoes
1 cup of salad with a pinch of shredded cheese and italian dressing
1/9 of a banana pie (DONT JUDGE ME..my mother in law makes the best pies!!!!!)


Dinner
1 cup salad
green peppers
ham
zesty italian dressing
bacon bacon
a pinch of shredded cheddar cheese

Dessert
1 banana
1 pickle
2 tangelos

Exercise - Walking very brisk with dogs 30 minutes - 214

Calories Before Exercise - 1674 / 1500
Calories After Exercise -1460/1500

Day 7

I will have to update this later since I will be heading out tonight. I can't promise that I will be good but I will try. I already blew it by eating Taco Bell for lunch. Although I did rake leaves for about an hour today. Yes, I know its January and we were raking and burning leaves today. Sad thing is...we have flowers starting to come up. I think Mother Nature has screwed up all the plants and trees and animals. I mean there are still squirrels out and crap!! Shouldn't they be hibernating? It is supposed to be winter...snow...cold...NOT ICE!! Well we are heading out and I will put in my food diary for the day and my calories (god save me).

Breakfast
Ham
onions
Green peppers
2 eggs
2 pieces bacon
3 sausages

Lunch
Double Decker Taco
Pinto's and Cheese
Mini bag of doritos
Dew

Dinner
1 cup pulled pork
Seasoned french fries ( i know bad choice)
Bite size tortilla chips
garden salsa


Dessert


NONE!!!


Don't judge me! lol

Raking leaves for 60 minutes - 348
Leisurely walking around Walmart 30 minutes - 130

Before exercise - 1865 / 1500
After 1387/1500

HA HA!!!! I was still under!!! BAM

Day 6

Well y'all nothing to really report today sorry. I mean I guess other than the fact it was 57 flippin degrees!!!! Its January 6th and yeah that warm. So ya know what I did...I washed my car!! Thats right!! My car looks pretty and all shinny!! 


Well I am really surprised. I mean I have had some friends come out and tell me that they also have PCOS. I mean I think it is great that we have an outlet. Someone to talk to that KNOWS what you are going through. I myself joined a blogging/chat group about 5 years ago that they have been my support group. The girls I go to for advice and I they don't judge me. They aren't afraid to tell me what they think. I never felt alone and I can say I have friends from coast to coast....literally! :)


It isn't easy to admit that you are having issues reproducing. You can't give your husband the best gift in the world. Especially when he has given you everything. I'm also sure it just makes you SO MAD every time you hear about these teenagers getting knocked up or shows like "16 and Pregnant". I personally don't watch those shows. It is just asking to be depressed. I mean even if you work in the school system (like I do) and see kids that yearn for loving parents. It is like a stabbing reminder that you aren't able to successfully get pregnant. It is all a mind game but you need to choose when to think about it. 


Also I got called to sub next week. I have a full day on Wednesday and a half day on Thursday. I'm kinda of pumped. I was running out of things to clean here at the house. Hence while I cleaned my car. WOOOO!


Food Diary


Breakfast
Ham
Onions
Green pepper
2 eggs
2 slices of bacon
2 links of sausage


Lunch
Dew
Kristie's Chef Salad

• Ham
• Shredded Cheese
• Green Pepper
• Bacon Bacon (Tastefully Simple)
• 2 tbs Zesty Italian Dressing

Dinner

1 1/2 Cups of cabbage

2 lightly breaded chicken breasts

Exercise - Light/Moderate Cleaning (Car) - 217

                Walking 45 minutes - 215

Calories - 1451/1500 before exercise
               1019/1500 after exercise

Day 5

Here we are 5 days in! I haven't cheated yet either...WOOO! Well I can definitely tell something is going on. I'm not feeling bloated anymore which I think is a good thing. I don't really think that was ever a good feeling so I feel we are on the right path.

I do need some good recipes though because what I eat is very mundane. I don't mind my breakfast every morning because I think it is good. Other than that its kind of same ole same ole. Lean ground beef, pickles, chicken, bacon, and onions. Well I know when we go shopping next week that I'm going to get other things. I'm going to look for low carb bread and some gluten free items. That way I can have some bread. I just want a different texture. I was going to attempt Chili but my husband refuses to eat it. Beans or no Beans. What happened to taking one for the team? Jerkface... as he makes biscuits and gravy for his second dinner tonight... maybe I need to try fajitas...just a thought...

FOOD JOURNAL


Breakfast
2 eggs
onion
ham
green pepper
4 pieces of bacon

Lunch
1 whole pickle
banana
Meatloaf minis
Dew

Dinner
Kristie's Chef Salad

• Ham
• Shredded Cheese
• Green Pepper
• Bacon Bacon (Tastefully Simple)
• 2 tbs Zesty Italian Dresing

Homemade Burger (97% lean beef)

Broccoli

Cabbage

Dessert

1/2 Pickle

Banana

15 Grapes

Exercise - Housework (217) and 20 minute walk (145)

Calories - 1198/1500

**Before you all freak out the My Fitness Pal app takes away calories when you log your exercise/activity for the day.**

Day 4

Well not really much to report today. I took Jeffrey's phone in to Verizon today. He got a new one! He now has a smartphone he can be cool like the rest of us and have apps and all that jazz. He has an HTC Thunderbolt. Its seems neat BUT I think my iPhone is better lol! Not like i'm bias or anything. Other than that i haven't done much. I'm still nursing my back. I don't know what I did BUT it has been super painful. I have been alternating heat and cold. So getting out to walk or do anything active hasn't been happening. It has gotten miles better since Sunday.

Food Journal later tonight!

OK here we go....Food Journal for the day...

Breakfast
Nothing....Just wasn't hungry...

Lunch
2 Hard boiled eggs
3 mini meatloaf thingers
8 oz. Beef Bottom Steak
Mt. Dew
(this is what happens when I dont eat breakfast I guess)

Dinner
Kristie's Chef Salad

• Bacon Bits
• Shredded Cheddar Cheese
• Hard boiled eggs
• Green Peppers
• Lettuce

Dessert

1 Banana

15 Grapes

1/2 Pickle

Walking at a brisk pace for 30 minutes - 217 burned

Calories 1368/1500 after walking

Day 3

Well here we are at Day 3 and Jeffrey is back at school. I feel good knowing that I don't have to drive a hour to work and an hour back home. I will really miss all my friends I made at Jefferson and Carl Sandburg. Although subbing will be good for me BUT I don't like the uncertainty of not know when I will be working. Its ok though I am better off emotionally and the stress is way less.

Being less stressed and more relaxed is already bettering my chances of the preggo-ness. I'm kind of excited just to be able to do my own thing. Being able to walk during the day and do housework. Maybe read a book or just watch TV. I just want to stay active and make sure i'm drinking water and staying on my diet. I'm sure Jeffrey will love to come home to a clean house and dinner on the table. I'm also sure the dogs are going to love not being caged all day too. I'm sure I'm going to get sick of it soon enough.

One thing that I really miss doing is decorating cakes. For me, doing it was very therapeutic. I feel like I was pretty good at it and I wouldn't mind getting back into that again. Although I don't really know the demand for cakes here in Sainte Marie. Especially since its only a town of 300 people. I love baking and trying new things. Today I made meatloaf mini's I took my mom's meatloaf recipe. Cut the bread crumb part in half and made my own little meatloaf snacks! If you want the recipe just message me on Facebook.

 

I hope you enjoyed my ramblings! Food Diary to come later....

Food Diary


Breakfast
2 eggs scrambled with onion, green, peppers, and ham
4 pieces of bacon

Lunch
2 hot dogs (no bun)
1 banana
1 pickle whole
1 Mt. Dew

Dinner
5 oz. Corned Beef
1 cup Cabbage

Dessert
1 banana
15 Grapes
1/2 Pickle

Walked 30 minutes with dogs - 143 calories burned (It was cold!!!)

Calorie Count = 1466/1500

Day 2

Day two is going well so far...I will add my food journal tonight. I know that part excites you all.

I do have to give a lot of credit to the hubby. I mean really he is the one losing out because there is nothing wrong on his end. He has been a huge help and support. More than anything he wants to be a dad and I'm holding him back...well my body is. He has been supportive and been my rock throughout this whole thing and no amount of thanks will ever be enough. I try not to focus on the fact its me holding us back. Honestly if you do that then you will just feel like crap all the time. I live day to day and thats how  I roll. I enjoy spending time with Jeffrey and my puppies. I also enjoy other's kids too!! Its always fun to play and make them laugh. It also helps with the hurting part. Its like getting a kid fix every once awhile! (Thanks mostly to the Ridlen's)

This hasn't happened in a while but something that really hurts my feelings is when people hide the fact that they are pregnant because they want to spare my feelings. Really?!? It actually hurts more that you are hiding it from me. I'm just as happy for you!! If you don't know my personality then we have an issue. I'm a strong minded individual (thanks to my parents) and I can handle it. BELIEVE ME! :D

I have been doing more research yesterday and today more on Akins and PCOS. How many grams of carbs am I allowed to have a day. I looked up a few websites and I thought this one helped and broke it down the best for me at least. Mark's Daily Apple I know some of you are going to come back with your opinions...which is awesome! Again I will end up doing it my way in the end...and I'm just being honest with you. :)

Breakfast
2 eggs scrambled with ham
4 piece of bacon

Lunch
2 servings of Summer Sausage
2 servings of Dill Pickle
1 Banana
1/2 Mt. Dew

Dinner
10 oz Round Roast
1 cup Broccoli & Cauliflower

Dessert
15 Grapes
1 Banana
2 servings of Pickle

Calorie Count - 1483/1500

Happy New Year

Well here we are 2012. I'm starting this journal to help with my weight loss and just with life in general. I'm currently trying pretty much an Atkins diet. Low carb. Other diets are hard for me to follow. This is all for me to get healthier and to increase my chances in getting pregnant. Thats pretty much my goal in 2012. I'm so done with all the crazy meds that make me feel like a raging hormonal b**ch. I'm done with doctors telling me I need to this and that by this date. I need to get back to taking care of me. I'm never good with deadlines...I procrastinate! I'm doing this on my own time...

Breakfast
2 eggs scrambled
4 pieces bacon

Lunch
3 pieces bacon
2 hot dogs cut up and fried (no bun)
1 pickle cut up
1 banana
1/2 can Mt. Dew

Dinner
2 small boneless chicken breasts
about 1 cup of broccoli & cauliflower
1/2 can Mt. Dew

Dessert
1 banana
10 grapes
1 tangelo

Calorie Count = 1473/1500

Yes I know...the dew needs to go. I will work on it. Diet Dew is awful and I won't drink it. So no suggestions there.

I currently have PCOS which is called Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. It actually is more common than you would think. It took a few doctors to figure out why I wasn't having a period. Why I gained so much weight in a short period of time. It took a really good friend of mine to convince me to go to her OBGYN/GYNO place. I did and after maybe a couple appointments for him to figure it out. I'm at my highest weight and I'm not happy with me. I need to get to a healthier weight and get my crap in check.

To learn more about PCOS...That is a pretty good description....

I'm not here for pity...I'm here for support.