Round 2...DING DING DING

Well if you saw on FB Friday it was my birthday...and the day I had to test to see if the IUI worked. Well it obviously didn't and I was very obviously upset. My birthday started out pretty crappy. I got through my morning and low and behold a delivery came to school. Jeffrey came through...

Yeah I know he was pretty sweet to do that...and it made himself look good too ;). I married a very smart man! 

The part that got to me the most wasn't the fact it didn't work. It was just disappointment. Thats what hurts the most. The guilt that I carry with me that this isn't Jeffrey's issue its MY ISSUE. I'm the problem. I know call me crazy or whatever you want to...but that is how I think people. The preist wasn't kidding when he said ......"For better or for worse" either...

So after school (we had a half day) I went out to lunch with girls from work and it was nice. I laughed, got to talk (without crying) about normal things and actually enjoyed myself. I hope they know how much that meant. We then went to our teacher inservice. I won't bore you with all the exciting details of that inservice. Later that night we went to a birthday party for a close family friend. Man I'm glad I did because it brought me out of that funk. I started to think "...ok Finley (yes I call myself that in my head...DEAL WITH IT...shesh!!)...it didn't work....we do it again...your parents didn't raise a quitter". 

So Friday night and Saturday morning I felt like crap, physically not mentally. Yesterday AF showed her ugly face. Yep thats right I started on my own and the day it was supposed to start. My body actually responded to how and when it was supposed too! I'm almost normal!! Although I don't like how she makes me feel...stupid AF.....mmmmmm chocolate.......

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ROUND TWO...DING DING DING...Starting tomorrow we are off to INDY again....