Well...here goes nothing!

I'm starting a new road today. It is not going to be easy. I may struggle at times, but that is ok. I need a new start. I need a new me. I'm sick of feeling so blah. I don't like regretting everything I have put in my mouth. I don't like thinking, "I shouldn't eat that" or  "How may carbs am I really ingesting?" I'm sick of feeling bloated and not wearing something because I don't like the way it looks. I'm sick of feeling fat. I'm sick of not being happy in my own skin. PCOS has changed my way of life. It has killed my fertility and I have gained close to 60 pounds since high school and I'm only 5'2"!! I have health risks I have to think about now. If I don't change SOMETHING then I could become diabetic, have high blood pressure, have heart issues, and some other things too. I have come to realize that maybe my health is more important and maybe having a child that has mine and Jeffreys genetic makeup (if it is possible) is kind of important to me too. I need to start taking care of me. So today I will start taking care of me. I'm going to try and stay clean and start a weight loss program that is OK with PCOS. I probably won't lose weight as fast as some other people on this program BUT any loss will help. I will keep walking with my walking buddies and we will help each other. I will lean on my family for support which I know I will get, because that is what families do. I will come out a better me. I will be happier. I want to change. So I will....